It's been a while...


I just wanted to mention that the show website is up and running - although, there's not much of interest added, unless you're out of town and you haven't seen the poster. There should be bios coming at some stage.

No pun intended there.

This link is for Paul, by request - but I should note that a lot of those pictures are pretty crude, and can contain nudity. But that's where I get them from.

And yeah, thanks for the encouragement, Paul - I'm taking all the hope I can get in that area at the moment!

I'm vaguely tempted to do a proper blog at the moment, but not enough to do so. I'll just say that work is crazy-busy, as is rehearsing. And all the other stuff. And I'm happy. And I'll blog properly... when I do.

Which reminds me of this:


- posted by Sam @ 12:15 PM

 
Happy Easter


It looks like I can't even keep up with one blog a week. And I think it's fair to assume that my blogging frequency is not going to improve... I just don't have as much to say as I used to. I can't quite work out why - perhaps because the philosophical (or, more often, the self-examining and dreaming) ponderings that used to fill my pre-working days have become less interesting. Or less important than living. Which leaves the thought of recording occasions or thoughts for posterity and/or for others - those who still read this (well done, all of you!) This can be done on an irregular basis, and so it shall.

I am not at church at the moment. I don't think I went last week, either. I still go more often than I blog, though. Hehe. But I've come to the realisation that sometimes it is not worth me going to church. So many times I have gone to church begrudgingly, and invariably come out worse off (unlike back in Dunedin, where it usually helped my mood). And I hear the argument that it's not about what I get out of church, it's what I offer. Fair point. But if you examine the reasoning behind it, it's kind of circular - it's based on the idea that one must attend church regularly (i.e. weekly), and so the argument is somewhat ad hoc.

Of course, there is much to be said for discipline, in the sense of forcing yourself to do things you don't want to in order to reap greater benefits. But even that must sometimes bow to experience. So, in the end, I will wake up in time to go to church, and probably end up attending a little over half of those Sundays. Works for me.

So, Sam, does this decision betray a change of attitude towards God? Yes and no. My attitude change is solely that of allowing my frustration to affect my actions - frustration that He is distant, and that nothing I can do or not do will change that. But it's not out of bitterness that I've changed my actions, just out of practically - there's no point in wasting time and energy on a one-sided relationship.

Some days I understand the illogicality of that argument. But not today.

I do sincerely hope that this step back is to a comfortable plateau, and is not the start of a downward spiral. For my part, I honestly don't think it is. Despite my frustrations, and (I guess) bitterness, I can't stop loving God. But in turn, I can't seem to love Him like I once did.

In other news, I'm so sick of chocolate. But that one I'll get over.
- posted by Sam @ 10:20 AM